Today!!

So today was the Make A Wish Mother's day Convoy and since it was mother's day i went to my mom's and made breakfeast for her....YAY ME!! After we had breakfeast i went to the Mothers day Convoy with a friend and her mom and her moms bf and her grandma. we walked around for a while to view the trucks but got caught up at the Army Truck. My friends Uncle who is in the Army was driving the army rig through the parade. We were there talking to him for a while, then we went off and saw more trucks. There was one fire company that we thought was giving ladder rides..Where they take the bucket all the way up and let you take pictures. We thought it was rides but they wouldn;t let us go cause of the liability, which is understandable. So we waled around more and wound up back at the army truck...we were only there for about 10 minutes and we left to get our spot. we drove to the K-mart and parked it there. me and my friend took lots pf pics and video's of the show. they are up on myspace and facebook. But after the convoy i was just ready to get back to her house. We had some food and i went to bed.... So i am here now just trying to fill the time till i can talk with someone!!

HEY

Hey all,

Today is saturday may 9th and tomorrow is mothers day. So HAPPY MOMMA'S DAY!! but i am here now cause life is getting very interesting. I had a chance to hang out with a friend of mine who i haven't seen for a while. we went for lunch and had a good time playing rock band. Then i left so she could get some other things done. After that i came home and helped my grandma figure out her new laptop.. Which i am using to make this post. haha....anyway then my other friend was like i am going to pick up another friend of ours and she and her son are going to spend the night....she was like you should come over and we can hang,,,,,I was like na i really don;t feel like it so i stayed home all evening and surfed the web. Other then that i am here for now then i am off to work!!! BYES

Dear Jason

This was written for a friend of mine and many others that was killed in a car accident on April 1st 2005. I have written something almost every year and post it publicly for friends to read. So hear is what i have written on the 4 year anniversary

Dear Jason,

So i was sitting at the computer and had a thought about something to write for you to today. Heather and I came by to visit you yesterday and placed a nice handmade arrangement at your grave. but the more i think about it the more it saddens me....Such a great life ended so short. But i am no good at saying goodbye, but then again i am not aware of anyone who finds it easy to say goodbye. The memories that you have held with all of us friends and family alike will stay in our minds forever. Never to be forgotten. So here is what i have come up with.

Everyday someone has to say goodbye to someone they loved or cared so deeply for. The loss of young lives seems to hurt the most, as does any loss. There is so much life to live and the pages in your are blank. Today it has been four years since we last saw your face. They have been the longest and hardest to get through. You have lived a short 19 years those pages are full of laughs tears friends and family and full of Love. You have and will continue to watch over us all, almost like a guardian Angel. But of course there is nothing good about goodbye....

Jojo-Leave (get out)

I've been waiting all day for ya babe So won't cha come and sit and talk to me And tell me how we're gonna be together always Hope you know that when it's late at night I Hold on to my pillow tight And think of how you promised me forever (I never thought that anyone) Could make me feel this way (Now that you're here boy all I want) Is just a chance to say [Chorus] Get Out, (leave) right now, It's the end of you and me It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone 'Cause I know about her (who) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies You said that you would treat me right but you was just a waste of time (waste of time) Tell me why you're looking so confused When I'm the one who didn't know the truth How could you ever be so cold To go behind my back and call my friend Boy you must have gone and bumped your head Because you left her number on your phone (So now after all is said and done) Maybe I'm the one to blame but (To think that you could be the one) Well it didn't work out that way [Chorus] I wanted you right here with me but I have no choice you've gotta leave Because my heart is breakin' With every word I'm sayin' I gave up everything I had On something that just wouldn't last But I refuse to cry No tears will fall from these Eyeee-eeee-eeees Ooooh, ooooh Get out [Chorus x2] Get out (leave) You and me It's too late (too late) You ohh Bout her move why You said that you would treat me right (noooo) but it was just a waste of time (waste of time) Ohhhh oh oh oh hoh o

R.I.P Jason Dubble

Dear Jason,

So i was sitting at the computer and had a thought about something to write for you to today. Heather and I came by to visit you yesterday and placed a nice handmade arrangement at your grave. but the more i think about it the more it saddens me....Such a great life ended so short. But i am no good at saying goodbye, but then again i am not aware of anyone who finds it easy to say goodbye. The memories that you have held with all of us friends and family alike will stay in our minds forever. Never to be forgotten. So here is what i have come up with.

Everyday someone has to say goodbye to someone they loved or cared so deeply for. The loss of young lives seems to hurt the most, as does any loss. There is so much life to live and the pages in your are blank. Today it has been four years since we last saw your face. They have been the longest and hardest to get through. You have lived a short 19 years those pages are full of laughs tears friends and family and full of Love. You have and will continue to watch over us all, almost like a guardian Angel. But of course there is nothing good about goodbye....

Jokes for you

Here are some funny ones from joke-of-the-day.com

You Are What You Drive...

Three guys die and end up at the gates of heaven, talking to St. Peter.

"So," Peter asks the first guy, "how many times did you cheat on your wife?"

"None. I had a perfect marriage."

"Great," says Peter. "You get to cruise around heaven in a Mercedes. And you, how many times did you cheat on your wife

"Only twice, I think," says the second guy.

"Okay. You get to cruise around heaven in a Cadillac. And you, how many times did you cheat on your wife?"

"12 times. Maybe 13," says the third guy.

"Okay," says Peter. "You get a rusty Ford."

Later that day, the guy in the Cadillac sees the guy in the Mercedes crying.

"What`s wrong?"

"I just saw my wife and she was riding a skateboard!"

The Best of Late Night...

George Bush is writing a book. No, that's not the joke. It's a serious book about the 12 toughest decisions he made as President. It's called 'The Ten Toughest Decisions I Made As President.' It's a good book. It's a pop-up book."--Jimmy Fallon

"A very happy St. Patrick's Day, everybody. Of course, St. Patrick's day is a little different this year. Nobody's got any green left." --Jay Leno

"Kim Jong-il has demanded that North Korea open its first pizzeria. It will have pizza just like the kind we have over here, but their Crazy Bread will actually be crazy."--Jimmy Fallon

"The Republicans are on board in this, too. Iowa Senator Charles Grassley told AIG executives -- this is what he actually said -- he said they should either quit or commit suicide. But I think that's plain wrong. I mean, why give them the option of quitting?" --Jay Leno

"Oh, a little health scare for former Vice President Dick Cheney's wife, Lynne Cheney. She was hospitalized briefly after fainting at home. She's apparently okay. But here's kind of a funny thing that happened. The paramedics arrived, and out of habit they started giving C.P.R. to Dick." --David Letterman

"Everyone had a nice time, but I guess things got ugly for a second when Ben Bernanke, the chairman of the Federal Reserve, mistook Dennis Kucinich for a leprechaun and tried to choke him for his gold." --Jimmy Kimmel

"And some sad news. Bristol Palin, Sarah Palin's daughter, has broken up with babydaddy Levi Johnston. I was stunned when I heard. I mean, really, if two kids without a decent education and no jobs and a baby can't make it, what hope is there for the rest of us?" --Jay Leno

"Here's a guy that won't go away, that Osama bin Laden. We got another audiotape from bin Laden. Have you heard it? He attacks moderate Arab leaders, he calls for renewed jihad, and he gives his NCAA picks." --David Letterman

"The Federal Reserve says Americans last year lost 11 trillion dollars in household wealth. You know, that is our own stupid, greedy fault for putting the money in banks. If we'd lost it in Las Vegas, they would have at least comped the room." -- Bill Maher

"In a speech Tuesday, President Obama outlined new education goals that proposed longer school days and longer school years. 'That's a brilliant idea,' said Katherine, the fifth grader nobody likes." -- Seth Meyers

Hey hey hey!!!

So today is tuesday and tomorrow i am starting my mini vacation. My grandparent's are leaving for Florida. They are to travel by train. They are leaving around lunch time and i am going to be home. Of course i am not staying here by myself my bestie Heather is coming to stay with me till they get back. I am excited because there will be no one here but her and i. We will have a full week of fun activities to keep us occupied. I still am working at dutchway adn I HATE it. I cannot stand it anymore. I only work 2-3 days a week and at 7.75 an hour it is not enough money to make the payments on bills, and such so ia m trying to get another job soon. and hopefully i onl;y have to wait till the beginnging of April. I hope that he can give me the job cause if not i am going to have to freak out....But i will eventually get over it and move on. So lets keep up the fun....Have a great week...

Alright so i was talking to a friend of mine yesterday and while we were talking she asked me y she cannot get a boyfriend. I was not about to tell her it was cause she is a Dork that has no job at 20 and cannot drive byherself without her dad. So being a nice friend i told her that it might be because she is not meant to find the love of her life. The more we talked however the more annoyed I became with her...So i began to tell her that she has to eventually move out of her dad'd house and move on with her life. So she told me that her dad would eventually get old and not be able to care for himself so her and her "husband"(if she were to get that far) would agree to let him live with them until he eventaully passed away....I then told her that if he cannot take care of himself that he is to go to a nursing home. And she said that he will not go to one because of an experiance that they had with her grandpa so he will not go to one. And i told her that if I were her i would not allow my dad to live with me and my husband cause i wouldn;t not want my dad poking his nose in my business. Then she told me that they would build an area in the house just for him to live so that way all he would need to use is the kitchen dinning room and the bathroom....So no matter what i said about growing up and all she said was well i would work it out with my husband. And i told her that she might not ever find someone...so i was being kinda mean but all she said was we shall see......i mean how DUMB can you be?????

Alright so here i am at heather's house watching tv. When i realized that i missed Secret life of the american teenager. But i will catch it at a later time. for now though i want to focus on something else. there are some people in my life that obviously want teh best for me. So i am trying to make those things happen however. my resource of money has run dry I work a crappy job like 2 days a week and am barley able to pay the one school bill let alone the other bills that i have drug myself into. so anyway i am a step up form a CNA but a lot of people are telling me to take classes to be a CNA. I am not sure how right it is but i was told at school that there is no way that you can work below what you are certified as. So as a medical assistant i am sorta confused if you can or not, But they want me to move forth adn get my CNA. But i am at the point that i am not sure what i want to do because i am stuck in this bad job. And a lot of the classmates that i graduated with are in college for really really good jobs and i am looking back on what i have done since our graduation and i am saddened cause it is not a whole hell of a lot. i do a lot of other non job type things but it is no longer good enough...I am still trying to get up off of the ground that i stumbled on after i moved out of my parents house and into my grandparents house...I am not saying that they have not helped me cause they have. Still i feel like it is not enough, I have no money to pay them back what i oew

RV SHOW!!!!

Yesterday was fun. Heather, Sharon, Paul and I all went to the York RV show. we got there and began our search for the perfect Camper for us. It was a lot of fun. Two buildings full of RVs. It is like camper Heaven. I am still not sure why we like to go but i like to look at the new designs in the RV world...I did notice that a lot of them are going to electric switches for everything...That is funny. Cause then we were sitting in one of them and Paul was like i am buying this camper so of course we were like what r u talking about and he said it is all electric. Not too much work involved in this one....We all had a good laugh and that was that. We did not win any bingo games but Paul did win a prize from the treasure hunt game. We go every year. I am looking forward to camping the weekends away. Memorial day and 4Th of July. and come the 4Th of July trip i will be legal to do what i want HEHEHE....alright i got to go so i will talk at you later...

HAPPY MARCH!!!

HAPPY MARCH!!!

So things have been going well. My hours at work have been slashed to less then half of what they were and now i am scrounging money for things. Other then that i live with my grandparent's and I enjoy everyminute of it. I am watching Secret life of the American Teenager and it is deff a good one..I have off till wed Then i work saturday. i am mad bored so i am going to go and write in my story while i feel inspired.

Life has been.......

Hey,

Alright so this past week has been good. I had off on Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday. Monday and tuesday i sat around and did nothing...I worked on Wed night and then went shopping with my bestie on thursday. Now the last two days i have worked and i am tired. Friday i got my stitches out and now i am here watching a movie.,,,That about summs up my day!! Happy valentines Day. Have a great weekend

Life

Alright so lfe is better....Now that the man is out my life forever....I can move on and never look back...So on another not my friend is having a baby in July and i am excited to go shopping. She is having a boy and i Can't wait to see him,. Yesterday a friend and I hung out all day so we could discuss our b-day party in july....I am excited for that too....Just lots of firneds and stuff....I am sitting and home today cause i have off and i have to clean some things up....So i gtg

Last week to now...

Alright so my life has been good I had this great guy ask me out. And of course i accepted. I was not sure though..but anyway i went to his house and watched the Superbowl with his mom and his brother. We were sitting there and i was trying to watch the game and all he wanted to do was feel me and make out. I was like no...so i had a friend call me and get me out of his house.. so i went to her house and we finished watching the Superbowl. Then we just hung out all night. Now it has been a week and we are no longer together...Explain that....OK so anyway we got to talking and every night he wanted me to go to his house after work...I was like no i don't feel like it work was a freaking drag. so he would tell me approx. 5 times a night that he really misses me and that he can't wait to see me again.. So today we talked here is what went down.

xXxYoung4LifexXx (9:18:47 AM):
hey

him (9:19:30 AM):
hello how t u

xXxYoung4LifexXx (9:19:51 AM):
good

xXxYoung4LifexXx (9:19:59 AM):
you?

him (9:20:16 AM):
not so good

xXxYoung4LifexXx (9:20:33 AM):
oh

him (9:21:00 AM):
im depressed and questioning everything about life now
xXxYoung4LifexXx (9:21:08 AM):
oh

him(9:21:17 AM):
hows ure weekend been

xXxYoung4LifexXx (9:21:43 AM):
tiring

him (9:21:51 AM):
lol i kno the feeling

him (9:22:04 AM):
val theres something that i need to tell u about me k

xXxYoung4LifexXx (9:22:28 AM):
ok
him (9:22:42 AM):
u kno how i say i miss u to u all the time?

xXxYoung4LifexXx (9:22:56 AM):
yea

him(9:23:40 AM):
i do that cus i think that ure going to go find someone who u can see more than uve been able to see me

him (9:24:15 AM):
i dont mean to be blunt but everyone who has said that they wont cheat on me or hurt me has done so

him (9:24:58 AM):
and im worried that ure gonna do the same

xXxYoung4LifexXx (9:25:38 AM):
ok..

xXxYoung4LifexXx (9:26:02 AM):
well I certainly do not want to hurt you but i don;t really miss you like you miss me....

him(9:26:26 AM):
k xplain im a bit out of it today

xXxYoung4LifexXx (9:27:37 AM):
IDK

him (9:27:43 AM):
srry im a bit loopy today

him(9:28:01 AM):
k well do u still want to be in the relationship with me?

xXxYoung4LifexXx (9:28:13 AM):
idk

him (9:28:47 AM):
well then i guess im just gonna go my way and let u go ure way

him(9:28:56 AM):
thats what its gonna boil down too

him (9:29:11 AM):
i dont wanna be with someone who dont kno if they even wanna be with me

him (9:29:18 AM):
im srry val

Him (9:29:21 AM):
ttyl

Me (9:29:36 AM):
it is ok. bye

Him:
im not gonna talk to u anymore have a nice life cus allu done is hurt me


It is funny that he is the one who is hurt....So i thought it was over when i got on my myspace i realized that i had a message so i checked it out and it was from him. So i read it. Here is how that went

HIS First Message to me
valerie i wanted to be with u but its very clear that u dont. im saying goodbye forever and going to put u out of my life. i have been very honest with u but u kno what that just didnt matter to u. well idk what matters to u anymore. u changed val and its not for the best so go ahead and play with ppls hearts since thats what ure good at. forget about the fact that someone may have wanted to be with u. all u did was break their heart for what? nothing. well im saying goodbye forever. have a nice life val and maybe ull change but ive given up on saying that ppl will change cause i know the truth.goodbye Valerie

My Message to him:
alright here it comes. this is how i feel. and I'm gonna let u have it.Honesty.. You want honesty..Well i am going to be blunt and out there.....I honestly don;t care....I had a feeling this whole time that this was not going to work.. I have changed but i don;t change for men...Weither you like it or not. I have changed for me cause i love myself more then you or any other man will ever be able to. And you want to talk Hurt...Yes lets talk hurt. You say i hurt you...by not wanting to be with you.... you have hurt me far worse then i have ever hurt you. First of all i DID NOT AND WILL NOT EVER CHEAT ON SOMEONE WITH MY BEST FRIEND!!!!! And i do not miss you and i will not miss you i am not the one crying this time. No sir.. The tears that i wasted on you the first time are no longer worth wasting....I don;t care that you don;t even read this this is just how i feel...And HONESTLY i am not sure how you can miss someone so much when you have only dated for a WEEK....That is seriously not possible....I don;t care what or who you are and honestly i don;t care that we never talk again. No skin off of my nose....But when you say i miss you over and over again i honestly just don;t miss you....I haven;t and i won;t....I was just fine till you walked back into my life....I can;t believe i thought this would work....WHATEVER...it is not Worth it...and if you think that you are hurt now wait till you get a real women who claims to love you marries your ass then has your children but don't really love you instead of working she is out loving some other man cause she don;t really like you either..I have never once thought about cheating on you or anyone cause that is just wrong shit. No matter how much you hate me or whatever. i don;t care friends and my grandparents are right All guys are asses....Even though this time it was my fault i admit that. but you cause the uncertainty the last time. so you have no one to blame but yourself!!!! GOOD BYE......i don't care if you have something else to say cause i will come right back at you with more

our last message from him to me....
THEN U KNOW WHAT F*** U...

I laughed when i read this over and over again...It is freaking Hilarious...He thinks he got me but i got him....HEHEHE so whatever

Love? What's in it for Me?

Here is the story.



I have these wonderful people in my life i call them my friends. They are so amazing and support me in all that I do, and i support them in all that they do. So there is this Guy. I dated him before (like 6 years ago). We haven't spoken for a LONG time. After him and I broke up he moved to Seattle Washington. Where he got married and then divorced after a few months cause she was controlling.... So now that he has come back into my life..I am of course interested in him.. my only problem one of the most amazing people in my life absolutley Hates him. For some un known reaason i feel like she has to like him so i can be with him but i know that she donlt have to like him it is up to me and since i never liked her boyfriend in the beginning it is like the same i grew to like him now they have been together for 3 yehars now and i really want to be with him but he has a past to clear.....apparently some girl claims to be having his baby....IDK